Hei Chavorale,... Think Locally!

I only remembered to read the new chapter of Bleach today. Pritty pritty uninterested in it, I'm just reading it because. 'Superchunky from Hell'? Sounds like ice cream. :P Does anyone else keep up with Bleach, anyway? One Piece, on the other hand, is held deeply in my heart. <3

It's 6 am and I'm up eating ice cream. Wheeeeeee.

I need a good song to dance to, because if I lose a bet (a few supersmash bros. battles), then I have to dance for someone. Not a lapdance or anything, just a silly, whatever-I-want-to-do dance, but I hope I don't lose. -_- And I want to do more bets (wuh?), so I need some things to bet over, just here and there in day-to-day life.

That's it, maybe...? Reading books, I am? Jobless, but that's sort of ok? Right now I think I will finally beat Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon so that will be over with, and then read some more.

And I fed ducks and geese today! I don't like alphas of species. >:[

I'm going to get my book! I'M GOING TO GET MY BOOK! I'M GOING TO GET IT! GOOD OMENS! IN ABOUT 45 MINUTES! And Jamaican food for lunch, because that's where we're going! I'M GOING TO GET MY BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby's birthday went finnnnnneeeee, actually it was a really good day for the both of us. Today on the other hand... -_- crap, at least for me.

Anyway I spent some time naked (actually I'm naked right now and the door's not even locked) and it feels gooooood. Psst, sometimes, when I'm upset, I put on my domme boots and walk around to make myself feel better. Haha.

Hm. I want to get back into fandom!! I read fanfiction recently!! Saved some icons!! Of course I still don't know what Lagann-hen (or whatever) is and I skip over any news for The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya even though the 2nd season should be due soon... but I'm still an avid OP fan and I plan on finishing Shaman King soon, yes I do. I don't know if I'll get back into Reborn and D.Gray-Man but... I wanna watch anime! Recommend me something?

And uh... hey. :)

So I remembered and stole a piece to fondle.

Wouldn't it be lovely to have sex to classical music?

I hope I'm not the source of the pressure you're under.

I no longer have a pair of jeans that does not have any paint on them.

I feel it. Always I feel it.

And I just want to think. fprdpndpddopm,rsm;pbr> What I shouldn't do is feel pressured, and I should definitely not lie. I think... well, would I know? I can talk about A (ha, sort of) but I definitely can't talk about B. As a person, yes. Passionately, yes. Oldly, yes. I just don't want it to have been a mistake, but I think the... 3rd or maybe 4th time later was a reassurance that it wasn't just a fuck-up amidst... amidst. Great word, amidst. *sigh* I don't want to think about anything else, or be occupied with anything else, and that could be bad.

Now that that's out, I'm sick and semi-miserable. Grossssss, I have to blow my nose every 5 minutes. I fucking. Hate. Pollen. Thus, I hate spring.

OK BITCH, I BETTER GET MY MONEY SOON.

I am looking at Calvin Klein men's underwear and sunglasses. ^____^

So I've been at least a week behind in checking my f-list, and even before that I was just really busy so I didn't comment as much... and hell, I'm still busy (oh my god- only 3 more days left of spring break and I have so much left TO DO), but I'm going to try harder to comment and such because I luh you guyssss :) Just know that I'm *interested in you* (creeepy) from afar and still read your stuff!

And since I really can't keep my mouth shut- guess what, I have a guy. XD

"I don't feel good enough for you."
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Whoa. I'm still shocked. I don't think I'll ever get it. New developments. Hey hey. O.O

I MISS YOU.

Awwwwww Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww poor babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Stupid prick.
Also, lol, woops, lol.

I took a very uncomfortable nap on a couch in the library and had a dream that I can't seem to place as good or bad. ButI love love love buying great books for cheap. Four books for five dollars, ugh wheee.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, Turkey. :)

Sorry sorry, I know all my posts these days make no sense, but das okay!

*Cue British accent* I can't... look... away... O.O

:DDD

Who would've thought that I'd lose a friend for going to homecoming with someone else? Hm, hm? Not I, surely!
Well, M. told me he loves me. Dammit, oohuhuhuhuh. :'( He loves me but he only wants to be 'acquaintances and classmates' because he feels like he doesn't know who I am; I don't get the same 'magnitude of friendship' because he wants to know who I am. Does that make sense? Do you need to know who people are to be friends with them? Maybe. I suppose. I don't know. He's also mad because, well because I waited a while to give him 'no' as a response to his homecoming proposition (but in all honesty, I hoped and tried to convince myself that it was a just-as-friends thing, where we'd go in a group with the rest of our friends, and that's more easily deniable than a date) and said yes to the guy I actually went with. Well, that was a whim, it really was. He doesn't know the whole story... And he thinks I'm more attracted to and willing to go out with foreign guys (which is totally true, I admit, but I'm not adverse to any americans provided they're smart and *cough*tallerthanme*cough* ... but as shallow or whatever that is... I don't think it's a good reason to stop a friendship, nor is the fact that I went with someone else to homecoming, nor is the fact that I did a mean thing, for once. I think... maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm just trying to defend myself. But I rather wish it didn't have to be this way. Aha.
Do I regret going still? I don't know. I don't want to sacrifice my happiness, and this guy makes me happy so far. I shouldn't have to sacrifice my happiness, because I already did that, and I've already done that. So, no. But, still. Let's be happy! Ahahahaha. :(

"If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway." ~Mother Theresa
That's a good quote. They're probably not mad at me just because they're jealous themselves... I mean, I'd hope they'd have more depth than that... but it's still good. Let's focus on the good things, shall we?

-Last night really was fun. I just... let go of things and that's good more than once-in-a-while.
-I'm home and with my family, minus one. My sister and dad and I went to a sushi buffet and it was so delicious and such a good deal that I stuffed myself and haven't needed to eat the rest of the day.
-We went to Borders afterwards, and I just love bookstores. Re-got The Phantom Tollboth because I can't find my very old copy, got a book for my dad, one for school, and a journal for my friend.
-I had a rather nice nap, with a rather nice dream. It involved my date from last night.
-I watched Monkey Business with my mom, dad, and brother.
-Tomorrow I'm going out with my friends who are not from my college, and it'll be a good breath of fresh air not filled with rumors and bullshit and bad feelings... and I feel disconnected enough already so it'll be good to see them.
-I have to write a paper (and that's not a good thing) but at least I have a vague idea about what I should write on. I suppose I should start, hein?

I'm not going to worry my head about anything else. I never deserved to be idealized... Wait, not going to worry about it! Not! Also, I need to remember about money, and I need to be more forward sometimes, I really do... :)

So I'll do better next week. Except with the thing that I really can't-- oh alright, I can bloody well control it/myself enough to make things better but how it is is that I don't want to let go of certain thoughts, flashes of contact, and hope, because they're pleasing. But oh, I shoulddddd. It'd make things a lot easier.

This weekend I will be good, do my thing, get some sushi with my girls, and it will be splendid...

Also, Disaronno. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Honestly Paige, there's absolutely nothing wrong with asking for your own book back, especially since the man's had it for nearly a year and you rarely see him! If you have to spend a little time drinking some coffee-- er right, sorry, tea-- and awkwardly catching up on things, then DO IT, because Good Omens really is important to you!

Hmph! You're right! I'll just... go make arrangements for later then, shall I?

Yes, do.

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Mmmm not much, not much going on these days. You know, good things happening and bad things happening after, but it's all ok because then something good happens again. It's a little late-- I'm late at these things quite a lot--but in any case, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy New Year, I hope you're all doing well!

I'm supposed to pick a movie that's in theaters for my friend and I to watch. I really haven't kept up with anything media-wise these days, so any suggestions?

Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrg, RACE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. YOU. GAH. *fuming*

[minutes later]

Ok, that's all settled, but boy, was I pissed. And it was sad because I was so happy before, and then a thing happened that completely brought me down, and now I'm happy-ish again. By the way, it's my break! Yay! I'm so excited, I'M GOING TO READ READ READ. *huge grin*

I'm wearing hospital scrubs and I love them. They're my friend's. >.>

Also, a couple weeks ago I heard my French professor talk in English for the first time and my god, *swoon.* That was adorable.

Lots to do! :)

Soin? Qu'est-ce que tu veux dire, "soin"?

Oh man, what fucking next?

Everything, duh. Can't wait. -_-

*repeated headdesk*

*whimper*

I shouldn't really be updating right now, what with reading/studying to do (but no papers, FUCK YEAH!!!). And then should I finish my schoolwork, all I'm going to do is read Nation and then The Graveyard Book and then I have to finish Arkham Asylum to give back to my friend and yadda yadda yadda. Then I'll sleep.

I'm kind of angry at myself because I accidentally poured way too much water in my aloe vera plant and it's definitely showing; the ends are getting all gross and squishy and brown. And here I thought I was good at taking care of plants because my bonsai's been doing so well. :(

Umnumum... I need to get better at comforting people. I usually like to be left alone when I'm upset (and a lot of times when I'm not upset) but of course that isn't the same with others. Bah. Hug or no? Comforting words? Wossamatta? I'm sorry? Buhleh.

L'octobre passe trop vite. Je l'hais. >:[

Oh right, my birthday. It was pretty good compared to all of my others. I relaxed with some friends, slept, got bored, and then my family and I went out for SUSHI and had LYCHEE SORBET. Still want, svp.

GOGOL BORDELLO. CONCERT OF MY LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFE AAAAAAAAAAAAH, WELL MAYBE. M.I.A. LAST YEAR WAS PRETTY GODDAMN AWESOME TOO BUT GODDAMN AAAAAAAH. Seriously. It was great. MY THROAT HURTS FROM SINGING/SCREAMING SO MUCH. I want more tea but I'm afraid of kidney stones.

But the main reason I'm posting is because, well, the 'Writer's Block' prompt posted today:

'Today's National One Hit Wonder Day. Whole albums or entire ouvres can be quite impressive, but more often than not, individual songs have the largest impact on us. ...'

Ouvres? Oh no. C'est oeuvres. Silly.

My answer would probably be 'Tainted Love' by Soft Cell.